Aunt Keen

Ive tried to write this blog multiple times, yet.... I cant seem.to find the words.

I got a text from a friend saying my aunt was trying to reach me. I called the number assuming it was my aunt kathleen. As soon as I heard my aunt jans voice, I knew something was wrong. My heart melted of the news of my aunti keens passing. I have plans on spending sometime in bay city this summer & was looking forward to spending time with her. Her passing was very unexpected & no good byes were spoke but I have faith that she knows how much she ment to me.
*im so glad im "home"*
   I was given some of her jewlery.& her jewlery stand. But as I look at it... Its nothing compared to having her here.
    Theres a purple bracelet that I remember complimenting her on years ago. We were sitting in church. Her, my gram & I. Those memories I will cherish for the rest of my life.
   My family may not be the closest or most expressive but the memories I have are priceless. I just feel blessed.
This year I expected to be a mom. & so far 2013 has given me nothing but heart break.... Yet some how im at peace & feeling wiser.

sn: I know my aunt is smiling down at me. I know shes with Jesus, my grandparents & my precious baby boy... If any chance heaven has blogger... Dear aunti please pass out hugs & kisses and please place a kiss on Zechariahs forehead for me. I love you & will live my life so I can join you one day.

Its like its Summer.

Life has been going. That is all I can say. I never really know what to expect from each day. I try to get out and enjoy the sun, the pool and the loved ones around me. Part of me aches to be back in Oklahoma, but as much as I can click my heels and wish for the days of... I know it will never happen. I toyed with the idea once or twice since its been officially over but today...I pretty much got my answer from God. I mean I know what I'm supposed to do. I get that but I didn't take my vows lightly no matter the shit we went through. Sooo there's that.... Time for me.

Work has been going as well. I am pretty much comfortable with the operations of the job, just not pronouncing a lot of the medicine.  Seriously  why is everything a tongue twister???  I take my test to be officially a level 1 Pharmacy Technician  next week. Pray for me. They tell me its easy and I hope I do not prove them wrong!

Heres to the frozen drinks with whipped cream.

Heres to the tears. Heres to the laughter.

Heres to the ones who really matter.

A peach Bellini. So Delish.

Wallaby walk about at the Toledo zoo

Coldstone with Carissa. Our last "date" before she went away for the summer. Mine is full of fruit!

Me in my Tech coat...oh yea baby!

INDEED

 

Good times

Yesterday I waited for Carissas arrival from camp. She had a blast & was so very much excited....

We all kind of layed around since the skies were grey. Id rather of layed around in the pool.

We ended up walking to starbucks for snacks and joanns for crafts.

Im starting an S wall & she is going to be doing her name.